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Where Am I Going?


Now that I’m a student again those “what am I going to do with my life” thoughts have come back to haunt me with a vengeance (probably because it had been put on the back burner for about a year or so). You’ve probably had similar thoughts and if you’re anything like me, you were probably wondering, worrying, stressing about how things might not go your way.

I know it’s completely normal to not know exactly what you want to do in life. Some people are lucky and knew from the start, others had/maybe still have no idea what they’re doing and continue to coast through life.

My problem wasn’t so much of a “what am I going to do” but a “which one should I choose” kind of deal. In high school, I knew I wanted to go into the arts or writing. When I applied for CEGEP (if you’re unfamiliar with the acronym, it’s General and Professional College (in French though) that’s pretty much required for Quebec students if you want to go to University) I did Arts and Culture which was a nice mix between fine arts classes, art history, film studies, journalism, creative writing and how this all related to society and different cultures. When it was time to apply for University, I knew it was time to choose. Which artistic side of me did I want to pursue more? My writing or my art?

After some contemplating, I realized that no matter how much I loved drawing and painting, I would never be able to do it as a career. I couldn’t see myself doing it every day for the rest of my working life. Freelancing it, keeping it more as a hobby than a job was fine but anything more than that, I felt like I would probably lose my passion for it. With writing though, it was different. I knew I’d be able to do it everyday, even if I didn’t feel like it, but not lose my passion for it. In fact, while I might not update my page every day here (like I did in the beginning) I still write every day. It just doesn’t get posted.

With that understanding, I went for literature and as a result I’m currently an English Lit major with a minor in Professional Writing.

That’s when more options, career-wise, were revealed to me and for a good part of my first year of undergrad studies, I started thinking about what exactly I wanted to do with this degree. At the time I was really interested in going abroad helping countries build schools and teach. But as I was taking composition classes and learning about editing it brought me back to my journalism classes back at CEGEP and it made me want to venture into that field. Then, during my year off when I got hired at a book store, I contemplated on working in the book/publishing industry. Sigh. Decisions…

In an ideal world, I’d like to do all of these jobs/careers one day. If I plan it carefully, maybe I’ll manage to pull it off. I mean, there are plenty of volunteer groups that go to countries in need, builds schools and teach so I could join one of those for a summer or two (or four).

After I finish my degree, I was planning on applying for this internship I found that works directly with the Canadian magazine industry and I’m sure I could find something similar for the publishing industry as well. If those fell through, I knew I wanted to go back to school and get my art and education degree so I could teach art or English. Ideally though, I’d love to work for/in magazines/journals/publishing first and when I “retire” or something, move onto teaching to share my experiences.

These are all just hopes and dreams at the moment but I hope I’ll achieve them one day soon.

Above all of these, I’ve always wanted to inspire. I always hope that one day my words, works or actions will inspire someone like many have inspired me. I think that’s partly why I started this blog in the first place. To connect with the world and give a piece of myself no matter how small. Maybe I could bring a few smiles along the way… who knows?

So…
Where am I going?

I’m going to finish my studies
I’m going to strive and work hard
I’m going to continue dreaming and reaching and hoping
and one day
I’m going to make all of this happen.
Maybe.

Until Next Time~!
Sam

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BACK IN SCHOOL


Some of the bricks– oh excuse me, I mean books, I’ll go through this semester. Fun!! | oh. and yes, that is a scrabble pencil case 😀

I’d talk about yesterday’s election, but I’m much more hyped about my first day back to school to even care.

I feel like a little kid again being excited about school and book/supply shopping (even though it’s so depressing on my wallet). I think this is because after a year away from school, it made me really appreciate my love, need, and want for learning.

I did forget how demanding classes could be and how hard it was to take proper notes quickly but I’m sure I’ll get back into the swing of things in no time.

Aside from those tiny hiccups, I really missed the school atmosphere but my friends are convinced I’ll eat those words eventually (probably around the winter semester because I always struggle around that time of the year– the whole less sun and stuck inside all day really takes a toll on my personal happiness). What I didn’t miss though… was lugging around these bricks disguised as books around all the time.

Do you see that pile of books? I have to have those with me every Monday and Wednesday. They’re so heavy and my old school bag barely survived carrying it today. In the end, I decided it was time to retire my dear army-green bag from full time school work and get a new one that definitely has better support.

I love these things

Oh. And you know what else I missed using? Those tab post-it things. I love them and with all the reading I have to do every week, it definitely helps me keep track of the pages better. Okay. I should get that homework done now.

OH! Quick Question(s)!
Do you/did you have a special homework routine?
I can’t do my homework without music playing but it can’t have lyrics because then I concentrate more on the song than my actual work. And when I’m having a really hard time motivating myself on getting said homework done, I try to listen to epic music. Like E.S Posthumus. haha.

If you listen to music while doing homework like me, what do you listen to?

Until next time~!
Sam

(P.S: Because I really have to concentrate on my studies, and the work load is more than I anticipated, I decided I’ll update every other day instead of every single day. There might be some surprise updates when on days I wasn’t going to originally post on, but no promises on that!)

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